If only there was someone… I love it. Such a profound and necessary truth is recognized here. Devoid of all the Jewish laws and talk of blood sacrifice or rituals… Job just knows that he innately falls short of the glory of God. What he needs to learn is the flipside… That of God’s character… That though he can do things… They are always with good cause and done with love and if we rely on that… He will bring us to a place of honor that is ultimately fulfilling… In this life or the next.
This “damned if I do and damned if I don’t,” mentality is the epitome of brooding. Job hasn’t sinned but his heart is sinful. It is positioned to allow sin to grow. I think that he knows it and that’s part of the reason he wants to die… Being made in God’s image… He wants meaning and because the rules in his life seem so arbitrary yet he knows it’s not his fault… He would rather die in his misery than live in meaninglessness. It’s a tough position. He needs Jesus to give him his hope back. This is a major point. It’s not enough to simply acknowledge or even worship God… We can become bitter and depressed if our focus is curved inward. That’s tough… To not feel bad for yourself… Especially when there’s good reason… Joseph arguably had it worse and he didn’t do that tho.