Your eyes are pools of reflection;
So deep that there end has no fathom.
The blue hue of their fire presumes
Nothing and consumes all,
Leaving me fulfilled and wanting
To touch their end and their beginning.
To find all that is you.
They envelope my soul with
And give haven to my thoughts;
Though scarcely a second has passed.
Blindness is the right I choose
I hide my eyes in an elaborate ruse
And claim that the devil made me do it.
I rationalize an obvious plight
Trying to fight the power without the power to fight
Undermining rationale in demented perversion.
Peace of mind needs a mental conversion
I’m hopeless and helpless and I deserve pity
But don’t try to give it… don’t care about my eternity.
After all it’s mine.
It’s something I can claim for my own.
Not something handed to me from a prince on a throne
And in time I’ll claim whatever prize is waiting for me
And whatever it is I really don’t see
The point in caring
To be so presumptuous
To be so daring
To first presume and then consume
I don’t deserve it
I don’t need it
I don’t need you.
You toss me to and fro in the storm of your wrath.
Your path leaves no lack of tension
On this earthen vessel
And I struggle to bind every sail fast
As I tread these
For what am I that
The winds should show mercy,
For my demands cry foolishness
My wisdom is simpleness
not worthy of a royal ear.
Yet I fear my destruction
For every obstruction along
My trek carries me closer to the
You grieve my heart.
You abuse me in selfish contempt of wisdom.
You use me in spiteful disrespect
of my willingness to give up all that is
And neglect me.
You have thrown away true love for ignorant bliss.
This I forgive.
For you do not know.
I will conform.
I will submit to your will.
No feeling will dictate
No thoughts will lead
Without your consent.
I cry before you and descend
Broken on my knees by the weight of truth and so I plead
That the only one who can lead me
Be merciful to
An old and naked man.
I pray that peace surpassing all…
Will comfort your soul.
That your spirit will be whole
Though your body wails.
I pray that love consumes every fiber of your being,
That relentless tears will free you from their hold.
That they would release you.
I pray that faith relieves your fears of future
Trials, that all denial be appeased.
I pray that the scales that blind you will fall…
Seeing what you have been told…
That it might be clear.
I pray that you find love and it holds you near.